Deep Breaths Please

I think it's so amazing how the world can look one way for a moment and in the next is something entirely different. There are so many variables I find it amazing that humans as a species are able to comprehend and react accordingly. Entire networks of relationships realign themselves without rhyme nor reason. People you think are here to stay take off, and those you thought you'd never hear from again find a way back into your life. And in this moment of reflection... I'm glad for it.

Not because i embrace change. It scares me to death. But more so because I fear that things may stay the same. For a person who doesn't like themselves for who they are or what they experience I imagine this to really be the most comforting thing in the world. The ability to mend your past. To reconcile our future to fit goals the we constantly reset. While in the end we are entirely a product of our surroundings I find no greater solace in this moment than to know it's my decision what those surroundings are. Who I associate with, what I do for myself, and even where I choose to reside, be it a residence or otherwise. A resolution for a better outcome is the only difference between being content and miserable.

So there is my vague thought of the day as well as my first post in a couple months. To end things on a different thought... my legs are pasty and white. This summer weather is not going to be good to me. And also, who wants to road trip? I need to get away. Let's go together.